Fall is here!

We finally got some fall pics this weekend...not to mention some of my adorable dd as a princess! The weather was unbelievably gorgeous and we had a blast hanging out in the park.

TSS and Christina Cole RAWK!!!!

Here are some of my creations for The Scrapbook Stand's Nov. Kit.....I ADORE being on this awesome team!!!

ThoughTs Challenge week of 10/18

What do I see beyond the glass and curtains of my windows. Right now I see the night sky, bordered by the deep purple leaves of the surrounding trees. Not a star can be seen on this rainy, cold night. My emotions are often dictated by the atmosphere, but tonight, they are not. Although the sky is dark bleak, I feel alive and inspired. It's been a tough couple of days, with no clear end in sight, but right now I am excited for things to come. I see the tiniest of lights from a plane far in the distance, and part of me longs to be on it...traveling to some distant land filled with mystery and good SHOPPING. But as it passes overhead, I return to my surroundings and realize just how much I love looking out this window....from the comfort of my own home.

ThoughTs Challenge #2

They told me that I would get better in a week or two....then they told me I'd get better by the summer....next they said I would get better once the stress of the school year was done....and then they told me I'd get better soon....once they even told me I'd get better after I had a baby....

And here I am, five years later with no job and a wonderful miracle of a daughter....and what they told me was WRONG, but not totally wrong. I am somewhat better. I'm at least weighing over 90 pounds and can ingest more than white rice and steamed chicken. And my pain is not at the excrutiating level it once was. But the pain is still here, I can't eat what I truly want to, can't travel too much, fear my body and its "surprise" illness that pop up every now and then. I don't trust my body to do what it should , but I'm learning to love it none the less.

They never told me this illness would make me stronger in the long run...but it did. First it broke me into pieces and now I am building myself back up to the strong and creativer woman I once was.

They told me I would get better soon...now I'm telling myself to quit waiting for "soon" to come and make the best out of the blessing you have been given.

Tracey's ThoughTs got me thinkin'

I just love music....it courses through my veins and brings life to my soul. This is a layout I did just to please me....totally my style....no cares as to who likes it or if it would get picked up. This is my style and I'm sticking to it. It makes me happy, just like music does...

The new me...

It's the new me....in an avatar anyway. Just wasn't feelin' all that {hot} in the last one. Took this pic tonight in dd's room and then played with a few filters in adobe to get the fashionista look. I like it. For now.

Dh is still redoing the bathroom. Plumbing is done and most of the sheet rock is up. I am really amazed that he has done as much as he has this week. I might actually have a "pot to pee in" by November. The house looks like a Tornado hit it, but oh well. No use dusting when he keeps making MORE. DD and I just stay in our nice basement and let the chaos go on above us. It's like our little sanctuary. Me and my little princess.

I must have noticed at least 10 times today how beautiful dd is. I mean she really is beautiful. Her blue eyes are stunning, her little lips and those chubby cheeks. I feel like I could never love ANYTHING as much as I love her. She is heaven on Earth. I kiss her at least a ZILLION times a day....because I know one day, she's gonna tell me to stop....and that's going to kill me! So I'm getting in as many kisses as I can!

Dd's new thing is playing with my hands as she falls asleep. I can't help but let the tears fall as I watch her drift off as her tiny fingers play with mine. And when she is finally asleep, she holds me tight. She fills me with such joy.

I've got to play around with more pics for the upcoming kits....and I must get them printed asap. Going to start working on designs as well in my sketch book. I have a few ideas....LOVING all the new papers I'm getting from TSS and GTTLC. At this rate, I'll never have to buy scrap supplies again....YA RIGHT>>>

I suck today

I really do....for many reasons. I hate days like this. And they always seem to come with the rain. Since the forecast says the rain should be here for a few more days, I'm sure this mood will stick around as well.

Nugget is officially gone to a better home with a family who can give him the attention he needs. Dh said he seemed really happy to be there with the other dog they have. And the husband takes the dogs to the park everynight...which is about 1000 times more frequent than we've ever taken Nugget. So in a way I am sad that my little "d" is gone, but I know it is for the best...for all of us. I miss you my first baby...I'm so sorry you had to go.

My long lost friend, one of my best, emailed me today after five long months of not talking. It literally brought tears to my eyes. She is such an inspiration to me. One of her daughter's is autistic and is now going through some more medical problems...but she is still strong and a beautiful person inside and out. I'm so happy that we have reconnected. She gives me the inspiration to push forward through all the issues I face everyday. And her humor through it all is KICK ASS. I've never laughed so hard and so true with someone! Can't wait for us to get together...

I plan on doing some scrapping tonight. I'm running two ad challenges at the two sites I dt for....which means I have to actually DO them..LOL! I only have one left to do...and my sketch is one I think I'll really like.

I'm starting to swing more toward the "scrapping for ME" than scrapping to get pubbed recently. It stresses me out too much to think about being picked up, and I think my style suffers for it. So from now on, it's just for me, my family, and my dt's. If I happen to get picked up, so be it. But it doesn't define me. There are way too many talented scrappers out there for me to believe that I might actually be a "household" name someday. I have a little following of people who like what I do...and that means the world.

Alright, enough gabbing...need to scrap...I mean clean....NO, who am i kidding...I meant scrap.

My Eyes Adore You

My baby girl....God has blessed me in so many ways...I know I can push on through the pain and the hurt when I look into her eyes. Without her, I would never have achieved so many of my goals this year. She is my inspiration.

SECRET TOOT REVEALED!!!!

I am now the PROUD PROUD member of TWO fabulous Design Teams!! Along with The Scrapbook Stand, which has become like a home away from home (love that talented and fun team) and I also a new member of GOOD TO THE LAST CROP!! YAHOOOOOOO!

I am so excited to have made this new team! A few months ago I would have never thought I could be on a team...to me it is just so prestigous. And now TWO! Somebody pinch me!