Monday, October 17, 2005

ThoughTs Challenge #2

They told me that I would get better in a week or two....then they told me I'd get better by the summer....next they said I would get better once the stress of the school year was done....and then they told me I'd get better soon....once they even told me I'd get better after I had a baby....

And here I am, five years later with no job and a wonderful miracle of a daughter....and what they told me was WRONG, but not totally wrong. I am somewhat better. I'm at least weighing over 90 pounds and can ingest more than white rice and steamed chicken. And my pain is not at the excrutiating level it once was. But the pain is still here, I can't eat what I truly want to, can't travel too much, fear my body and its "surprise" illness that pop up every now and then. I don't trust my body to do what it should , but I'm learning to love it none the less.

They never told me this illness would make me stronger in the long run...but it did. First it broke me into pieces and now I am building myself back up to the strong and creativer woman I once was.

They told me I would get better soon...now I'm telling myself to quit waiting for "soon" to come and make the best out of the blessing you have been given.

6 comments:

Celia said...

What a wonderful spirit you have girl!! Thanks for sharing! {{hugs}}

Tracey Odachowski said...

You go girl! It's always so much easier to give in to it, but so much better to overcome! :)

{Amanda} said...

this is just wonderful alexis. . you're an inspiration!!! ((HUGS))

Anonymous said...

HoHoHo. Santa thinks that you deserve a fantastic Christmas!! What an incredible spirit you have. . .and Santa will help you with your Christmas Spirit too!! ;)

HoHoHo!!
Kris Kringle

Sarah said...

So sorry, A. Hang in there. Hope it gets better.

Amy F said...

You are such an inspiration, Alexis! You have such a wonderful attitude!! (((hugs)))